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This week has been pretty shitty for my anxiety and reflux. I got unexpectedly super emotional and break down-y when Glitch closed (it really didn't help that the last quest I helped wrdnrd with was to find ghosts that were the mostly forgotten memories of glitches from a previous incarnation of the world).

After a night of poor sleep I woke up with some of the worst reflux pain I've had in a long time. Might be because I had some tasty lemon and honey water. Straight lemon should probably be avoided.

Chest pain triggers anxiety which triggers more pain. It took most of the week for the pain to drop to something that I wasn't always conscious of. So of course in exchange I get a lot more anxiety. Right now I can't even really have a conversation with wrdnrd because I can't keep focused. It's all I can do to keep out of overactive hypochondriac mode and really get myself worked up over chest pain and this twitch in my bicep. My brain keeps wanting to take me to WebMD, but we all know that won't help with anxiety (besides, when your main reflux symptom is pain in the left side r chest you get tired of all the sites telling you to go to the ER. No, really, it's not my heart. Of course, my anxiety thinks it might be, but fuck that guy). At least I'm pretty sure my upset stomach is just from a combination of the restaurant I went to for lunch and my nerves and not a parasite or something.

I've also been trying to get a bunch of stuff together for a project management certificate class I'm trying to get in. Resumes and intro letters are nerve wracking when you haven't written one in nearly 4 years. I put so much corporate BS into mine I'm not sure I'd even recognize it if you read it back to me.

Let's not even get into the cat who's been throwing up everything and if he doesn't stop it will need a vet trip this weekend. And I meant to start a pie for a party tomorrow but my kitchen makes my anxiety worse (why? I love cooking!).

Long story short, this week sucks and I would not mind too much if a meteor hit the bedroom right now.